"Hitch hikers guide to insanity There were periods in my life, up to a few years ago, where I really felt that I had been handed the wrong book to follow. I felt as though other had been given clear instructions on how to live and that my book somehow had had the pages deleted or put into some sort of gobbledy gook. I was constantly struggling to learn the lines, follow the script but always felt out of step and as a result I guess developed a sort of "couldn't care less mentality. I suppose my logic was if I don't show I am hurt, you won't now I am hurt and then that will make things better. I can see the flaw in this now but for years it seemed the way to be so I was.
