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Survival

I survived a mild psychosis this week. It wasn't fun but I am touching earth again- grounded. Now I have mixed emotions about this time of year. I am happy and indifferent.Strange- perhaps I am still slightly psychotic.I know I am depressed. These days -cloudy and freezing. Yesterday morning the sun peeked through the clouds for a short while. I enjoyed the few moments. Otherwise it has been grey for days - especially after the snow has melted...

Basketball Season - Will they reach the Final Fours of The Nationals?

Dec 2012 - half way through the season. So far the boys have beaten Plymouth Marjon 122-44, Solent Kestrels away 68-71, Ipswich Tomcats 113-54, NASSA away 75-76, Reading Rockets away 49-92, Westminster Warriors 67-62, Brentwood Fire away 41-79, London Greenhouse Pioneers 70-57 and Medway Park Crusaders away 70-71. Warriors will get to the national knock-out stages, but it’s vital to finish either 1st or 2nd in the South Premier League. Currently...

Christmas Present

No no presents- but it is soon Christmas Eve and the big evening- families wil be gathered- kindness,love and care will be shared. An extra effort this time of year to make it a festive and happy occassion. Okay- I hate Christmas. This year I hate it. Uptil now it has only been a pain. A dog who had to be operated on, a tooth pulled out, a row and now endless days of dark skies, freezing temperatures, slippery paths, gammy knee- I could go on...

Scales

If you take all the mistakes- tiny and huge I am sure they would outweigh the good. But that is what makes loving, kindness, care and good intentions so intense and so much worth. Sometimes it strikes me: what would we do without the Bible? Without the 10 commandments, the story of the birth of Jesus and God? If all this hadn't been passed on and been such a big part of Western civilization what would it be like? Sometimes I think it would be...

A Day to Remember

Wow, what an experience. Standing in the parade ring with the trainer and the jockey. Looking at the colours that our little syndicate had designed. Hours in the pub discussing different cap colours, sleeve and body colours and designs. Agreeing then disagreeing about them. Another beer, then coming to a compromise about it all. Another beer then toasting our choice. Red cap, black shirt with a white diamond, black and white checked sleeves...

Infinite Sky Comp - the results

The winner is: Sunday's Child for this heart-rending poem: http://www.abctales.com/story/sundayschild/infinite-sky It was a very tough one to call but honourable mentions must go to mgwalpole and ScoZen (twice): http://www.abctales.com/story/mgwalpole/infinite-sky http://www.abctales.com/story/scozen/infinite-sky http://www.abctales.com/story/scozen/infinite-sky-0 Congrats to all on a very very high standard of entry.

My Horse

My horse runs tomorrow for the first time. I'm nervous and excited all at the same time. I bought him as a two year old and he's been in training down in Devon. He's in a juvenille hurdle at Ffos las in Wales. I'll be there of course, wouldn't miss it for the world. 12.45 and he's called Rio De Sivola. Fingers crossed.

Edges

I am wondering- when you are poor like I am-is it easier to get angry at others? I'm not so sure of that. But I am angry and sad at the moment. Had a row with my son and now he won't speak to me. We have been struggling all month with Vet bills,dentist bills, his phone bill and insurance. He didn't realize that he was eligible for benefits and therefore I have been donating to his livelihood. That's okay with me but I do think he should get the...

Sandy Hook Elementary School

I can't put my mind to much else than this terrible tragedy. These sweet little school children- so innocent. Their families left with the loss. Their friends marked by the experience living on, scarred for life, traumatised, losing their best friends. My own troubles seem small in comparison. These are heavy days. Accumulating sorrow. Really makes you believe that the world is mad.

Christmas Past

Christmas is a very family minded time of year. For most. If you have a family. If you are in the Christmas spirit. I don't feel it so strongly these days. I'm going to make it as christmassy as I can for my son. Although he doesn't live with me I know he loves this time of year. We can't afford much but we can afford some Christmas cheer. Before he was born I celebrated Christmas with my father and Step-Mother. They both had full-time jobs but...

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