Journal 2

My life is pending.

What should I do?

About two pm yesterday, I bought a 40 of Steel Reserve, potent malt beer. I drank it and then got my friend Pat to come over and take us out to a bar...

I've been sober and drug-free for eleven days now. That excludes caffeine, which I've only kind of moderated. Today, I went to a coffeehouse to have...

Thank God there's some place I can go to write. It ocurred to me just now, looking in the mirror, that I have spent most of my life victimized to the...

Tonight, I bought a large bottle of Heineken with one dollar given by my brother, forty cents from my mom, a pile of pennies mixed with half-burnt...

I am still in Baja, Mexico. I went snorkeling con mis padres. On my first trip out, I didn't see a whole lot. But the second time, I went farther out...

I am watching the Ethan Hawke "Hamlet" and am finding it rather interesting. While I would not call it an excellent "Hamlet," it has some definite...

Tommorow is the first day of the rest of my life and I have a chance to make this true.

I got up this morning after a beautiful sleep. I had to choose between more sleep and looking over the cover of my book. I like to act quickly so I...

Mischeif's Last Summer

Here are a few facts about my recent life. I graduated from college at the end of winter term with a degree in English. I owe the university a few...

I still have ten fingers, ten toes, and enough coordination to type this. I have a can of Coke in the freezer and I'm waiting for it to cool off. I'm considering going to teach kids English in South Korea. I don't even know what age kids I'd be teaching and I'm not sure I can picture myself actually carrying it out. But whatever I do now, it'll be hacking it. My mom's mid-twenties room-mate is in the kitchen making a vegetable smoothie; My mom and her have been on a five-day fast, all the while living hectic, modern lives. They've been taking all these pills, too. It seems to me that if one is going to fast, one should be in a situation where she can do only a moderate amount of work.

Recent centuries have seen remarkable events occur on this third rock from the sun, events which superficially center around our species and which have left the Earth organism severely out of balance.

a poem- (to phrase it weakly, as my muse is, as I, sickly) may be a bohemian exudation, a war-like insinuation, a contemplated, learned elaboration, or one of a thousand other Orphic manifestations--

Long have I fought against you, Lord Terror, but i am weary: your minions are everywhere As a small child they pinned me to hard chair and tortured me with facts and formulas as a youth, i heard your message from the church pulpit

as long as Earth has people like him, the green glow of her continents shall never grow dim.

(dedicated to Bob Dylan) Possibilities POSSIBILITIES floating around me in the wind like so many maple leaves Possibilities, graceful possibilities profitable possibilities, ethical possibilities,

Beautiful be Arlo Guthrie's "Alice's Restaurant!" (but death is in the wind for me) Beautiful be buffalo snorting and cavorting around ol faithful! (but death is in the wind for me) Beautiful be dainty white cups of Indonesian espresso!