L. She smiled

She smiled

She smiled, her lip cracked open, a tiny trickle of blood run down her
chin.
I wiped it away with the all ready well soiled tissue, I brushed her
hair from her forehead
Some came away in my hand, she smiled, I stared into those sunken eyes
of agony
And said to my self 'it should be me'

She cried, "Mummy its hurts a little bit, please bring God" "he's all
around baby" I told her. "no he will come soon he lives in a glass tube
and the Angel will bring him to me"

The Angel come with her glass tube. She smiled "he's here now
mummy"
She fell asleep her pain gone for now, I spoke to the doctor he told me
nothing I never knew, there is nothing, nothing, no hope, no God no
nothing.

I looked at her so sick, so beautiful my baby girl she's going to leave
me soon and nothing can stop it, I dare not cry she might wake.
What is this all about? Gods will? I don't want to hear it God moves in
mysterious ways. He sure fucking does he kills babies small childen
rips hearts out turns hope to water and it runs through our hands.
Don't you dare call a priest.

She woke, " hurts again mummy!! get the Angel?" I looked at the Angel
for help
" too soon" she said, I screamed in my head 'WHAT'S IT GOING TO DO KILL
HER?'
God what am I saying? I want her pain to stop.

"Mummy, Mummy its hurts more get him get him please" I held her, I
screamed do something, help her for Gods sake.
They came and gave some more glass tube God to her.

She smiled, I laid her back "he's here now Mummy" who is baby, God? "No
Daddy! he says it's all right to come with him now, he's standing by
you Mummy, he says he loves you, it hurts again mummy, get some more
God PLEASE PLEASE.

She smiled she cried and she died.

Rest in Peace&;#8230;..Hayley.