kiss in the rain

For winter's rains and ruins are over, And all the seasons of snows and sins;
The days dividing lover and lover, The light that loses, the night that wins;
And time remembered is grief forgotten, And frosts are slain and flowers begotten, And in green under wood and cover Blossom by blossom the spring begins.
After a long wait there was the first rain, Neer and I enjoyed all seasons. Every thing shared with him was love, even those fights, tears and loneliness. I made him a part of everything. In all the walks of my life I saw him not with me but within me. I wanted to tell him everyday that I loved him coz every moment I used to fall in love with him. His love was like wine, it would go better with time. I knew no greater truth in life than our love.
Neer was my only support; I was trying to protect myself every day from the fear of loosing him (loosing the only support). I was scared and didn’t know if I would be able to live again and feel again after feeling his heartbeat.
We met on net, he was sweet and simple. He was lost and loved no one, after going through the pain of betrayal. He was ready to convince me on non existence of love. I was not very pleased with his thinking and ideas; I had never fallen in love. The pleasure of falling in love was alien to me but I knew for sure that the pain would be worth it. I was ready to convince him on it. I didn’t want anyone to ruin the sweet bubble of love.
Neer and I walked the streets of love, with passion in our eyes and warmth in our words; I was felt love in the air. He saw me like no one did, he saw the best that was in me. The black and white life was painted with colors; I found love knocking on my door. The anxiety to meet him and to share my life with him brought a smile on my face. Feeling him around, that gave me a sense of protection. The first thought of day and my last wish before sleep was him. He made my day and night with his love. I don’t know if I was happy but I do know that I was complete.
Then came the last rain, we were wet in love, and I wanted to know if he was happy? I saw him yearn for me, and he said that he loved me for the first time before I confessed my love, he was there too close to me and I had my heart in my throat. My confession was in my heart I wish I could say what I felt. After a while he left me alone, as he wanted me to think about it and reply. I didn’t want to think, there was an unspoken love and there was no going back.
I went back home with a jovial heart. I went to take a shower and thought about him, I thought of the perfect way to tell him how much I loved him. I was just thinking about him that in no time I heard my phone ring, I knew it was Neer. He told me that he was leaving and had no idea when he would be returning. He wanted me to wait for him to come back and to attest his love for me.
Love came in a beautiful gift and I had to wait to open it. I knew that I loved him, but I guess I came to a point where I had to test my love for him. I wanted to wait for him and I was hoping for his love to grow stronger everyday. I didn’t want anything to change my love for him.
Patience started to answer, and I knew that I was breaking down. I wish that I was strong then, it was after a long time that I felt the need of being with some one, I was alone. My heart was questioning me about my love for him. It was then a new day, when I saw support in someone’s eyes. I could feel those eyes just watching me in that crowd, noticing me and I felt wanted after a long a time.
There I was looking for just another support loosing all my hope. Adil came to me offering his love, with stability. I wanted to tell him so much about Neer but my desire seemed eat all my words. I just wanted him to stay longer. I had nothing to give him in return, I think I was totally in love with Neer and I think there was no coming back from there. Adil and I turned into good friends I didn’t tell him about Neer coz I though he was my fancy, my dream and my memories that I didn’t want to share with anyone. I thought I was crazy to wait for him, but I think I was happy waiting for him.
The pages of love turned yellow and dull, I started to see how they were falling into pieces. I had to bring myself together for this last time and wait for Neer to come back. My heart longed to tell him my love for him, my tired eyes longed to sleep in piece and my dried up lips longed for his kiss.
Adil was sure that he could make me love him, but I wasn’t in love with the thought of love I was in love with a person who taught me love. My feeling for him might fade for a day, month or even more long than that but I knew that it would still be there alive in my heart.
I had to take a step back, I wasn’t attracted or falling in love with Adil but I guess somewhere he was and I didn’t want to hurt him. Keeping my faith strong I told him to leave me alone as I wanted to be with myself more than anyone. I kept myself busy as much as I could. I wasn’t trying to forget him I was just trying to feel nothing.
Then after a long wait when the first rain came it brought hope, and affection I felt him there alive in me. I was trying to remember everything like it was yesterday. I did that everyday, I saw myself not trying to hard to love him coz it came naturally. I felt him more than I felt myself. Not knowing where he was, what had happened, every moment and every memory made me fall in love with him.
Life is a box of chocolates u never know what u might get. I received a mail, there were flowers and an envelop which said,
“I have none but only one,
If u have none but only one
Then let that one be me”.
It had the time and venue written on it too. I dressed up in a simple dress trying not to look dressed up though I did dress up. And there was the first rain which seemed like never ending. Neer wanted to explain and justify his absence, but before he could say anything I confessed my love. He took me in his arms and gave me a kiss in the rain. Love was special, coz it was shared with someone like him. I saw my crying eyes; tears were lost in rain, and my heart beating hard lost in the sound of rain. I lost myself in this rain and found love.
The night has thousand eyes and the day but one,
Yet the light of the bright day dies with the dying sun,
The mind has thousand eyes and the heart but one.
Yet the light of whole life dies when love is done.
The next morning was special; it looked as if the sunshine was dressed up for me. I saw my new life with him, a happy and lovely life. I saw my love, and I prayed to god that my mornings shall be blessed like this, and then I can see the darkest hour of day if I see him before the brightest sun ray.
I wanted to thank him for giving me all that he has, and I wanted to give myself to him.
Rest like you know every princess after finding her prince end with, “and then they both lived happily ever after”.