Pain

Heart constricted and soul crying,
why does this happen to me?
I put my own head on the block,
but it hurts too much to die.

I want to suffer, I want to cry,
but the last thing i want to do is inflict.
I can't tear myself away
from what I've created.

why should the world suffer
the hurt that i cause?
why should i do what i do?
because i can
and i can't help it.

I have feelings too
but ignorance rules
their own tears
burn holes in my skin.

my voice has been lost
as the blade crashes down
the pain still remains
as i run.