Such a girl

Never have I known, or will know again a more beautiful soul.
Her love and devotion unrivalled and pure.
Not knowing the limit of her life was the essence of her innocence.
Nothing taught her how to love, she didn't need to learn, it was her purpose in life and she knew this from the moment she came alive.
I didn't know her then but soon after we first met.
From that moment on we rarely missed a day together for all those thirteen years.
In all that time the only anger shown was from myself due to my lack of her love and purity.
Even now at the end my feelings I think of firstly, at how I will miss you and the sleep I will lose for some nights yet.
But here you are sleepless yourself and your body wearing not understanding your pain.
Or how I cannot as always before help you feel safe.
I know now my place and my task to follow, it is with shaking spirit and aching heart that I do this if only you could understand.
Yet it is that unknown that pains me most as I cannot explain what must be done.
That I must look you in your old but beautiful eyes one last time. Hold you tight against me and force the life from you.
Though your body will wilt and fail your love will survive in me.
And as you slip away know this, a part of me goes with you tonight and dies along side your soul.
My dearest most beautiful companion I must let your leave be swift so that you can rest this time forever and your pain be gone.
My anger at your loss will cloud my grief until I can contain it no longer.
I know you could never do this for me if the role was reversed.
That is why it must be this way. Please forgive me this final act of love and kindness my sweet baby girl.