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WILL I EVER FORGIVE

God please forgive them
For what they have done
God please forgive me
For forgiveness I've none
How can I forgive
The evil I've seen
The pain and the anguish
A mother's worst dream.

Herded like cattle
The screams and the cries
My sons, my young babies
Filled with terror, their eyes
They cling to each other
Both crying to me
The sound of the gunfire
Their souls are now free.

I awoke in a nightmare
All bodies around
The cruel smell of death
Sweet birdsong, the sound
Then the lorry moved off
As I tasted the blood
Entangled with bodies
We drove through the wood.

My prayers then were answered
One son was alive
He held my hand tightly
Our will to survive
Gave us the strength
To climb out and run
The long road to healing
Has slowly begun.

We escaped to Albania
Though barely alive
The long months of suffering
In body and mind
No news of our family
Perhaps they're all dead
My son will not leave me
The terror's real, in his head.

We return to our village
The ghosts haunt my mind
They're digging the woods now
My family to find
But all that is left
As they dig mud and stones
The family I loved
Are just old rags and bones

My family, my family
The young and the old
Erased from this life
As atrocities unfold
God says to forgive them
I know that I should
But images of my children
Cry out for their blood.

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