On my own

On my own, pretending youre beside me. I step into the light but Im
in a room in only black and white. I see my past, I look into my
future, but its blank, no hope for you the voice says. I cry out in
anger telling it its not fun to be on my own anymore and that I dont
want to see anymore. Im then left alone in my room staring at my diary
trying to force myself to write something but all i can think of are
random words, meaningless to my life. I eventually put pen to paper and
write 'I dont want to die, but I dont want to live either. Im swept
away again into the black and white room and see what life would be
like without me in the world, it doesnt look much different, infact
exactly the same, except now i see another girl she reminds me of me,
same routine, same self doubts, same self pity.Watching from the
outside it does seem different, but only as an angle. Maybe if Id seen
things from a different angle I wouldnt be here. Then im taken back
home again, I realise i could be better alone, in my own peace and
state of mind but then i remember the girl in the room, maybe if I
saved myself I could save here too.Or maybe were just not worth it, ill
have to see and prove to myself otherwise.