E: Inside

Inside my head I'm crying
For the need of trying
So hard to be myself.

I left you so alone and dying
For the pain of trying
So hard to be myself.

The depression that I feel,
The aim to try and steal
Some remnant of myself.

It hurt so much to see you.
The want to be with you,
But, I need to be myself.

The nothing that I give,
The force to try and live
With being me myself.

The fear of loneliness.
The memory of happiness.
The need to be myself!

It wasn't us that failed
It was the depression that prevailed
That was locked within myself.

All that, myself,
Had left, has made me, myself
Bereft of that which I loved the most