Bleeding on the inside

I'm really not a violent person, I've only
Ever got in two fights. But sometimes
I'm pushed over the edge, and my blood
Boils like an erupting volcano. My veins
Burn with magma, the sizzling rocks shattering
My skeleton as I try and keep it under control

So far I have managed, but I don't know how
Much longer I can control who?what I am
I'm bleeding on the inside and just wish
For one day I could bleed someone else's blood
As I'm scared for myself and for others
Of what I'm capable of

It's tiny, minute thing she gets mad at me for
When it's hardly the end of the world
Am it takes all my strength to resist from
Smacking the witch round the face
Ladies and gentlemen
My mother

And now I'm scared for whoever ends up with me
I might love them at the start
But for how long?
How long before I make their life a misery
I need love, but I don't want to hurt anyone
Some have said cross that bridge when you come to it
But then it'll be too late, and the evil will outweigh the good

I'm considering being alone, because I don't want my
Darkness forced on anyone else
No one deserves evil in their life
My mother should never have had kids
I don't want to be this person
But she doesn't deserve any good I have left to give
Witch.