Victory

She looked up at the infinite sky, her mind wonders; is anyone there? She grew up listening to fairy tales about angels in heaven looking out for her, but she questions what kind of guardian angel would be this cruel to tease her with the path for sanity. In her heart she wishes for some kind of demon to take her under its wing down to rejoice her with other sufferings, so her pain would be understood. No one relates better than another depressant, she needs a friend who understands. Dark clouds are gathering into one huge lump of shadow, it seems like a sort of symbolism of pain within her mind. Everyone keeps saying out loud how disturbed she has become”it's annoying to hear when out of all people she knows best how true it is. If only they knew how she is alone, when they have left her, isolated her from everything they do. Pushing her away”she scares them”unintentionally. It amuses her to see her sorrows powerful enough to drive them away.
Secretive whispers questioning her sanity, she mocks their stupidity”they thought she wouldn't have seen, that maybe she's so consumed with the depression she wouldn't notice the betrayal. They call themselves her friends, how can they just watch her fall”so deep. All they offered were their words, meaningless and useless.
Those looks they shot her, full of fear and their heart pondering decisions of rejecting her, leaving her to be with her sorrows. They loved her to death but she has slipped too far down that they long to leave her just for the sake of their own sanity. Just so they wouldn't have to endure her pain any longer. Their love can never be strong enough to risk their own sanity.
Hurt, deceived; she fakes her happiness. If only they knew how much she love them”enough to end her sickness with a single slit on her wrist”just so they wouldn't have to bear the guilt of leaving her. She will leave them and rejoice with those depressed sufferings down there, she will burn in flames and scream out her pain”she will cry out her sorrow. She'll dance to her triumph as they all mourn for her victory.