Nature v mind

MIND V NATURE

The sun shines then a minute later gale comes. The gale blows then a
minute later it rains. The rain cries down then a minute later the sun
shines again. And the beautiful small island goes on.

I am here lost between the beauty and sadness of the autumnal trees
slowly losing the dead leaves. Is the beauty of it just to reduce the
harshness of the approaching winter?

Why do I care?

I look to the mirror&;#8230;what do I see? Such intensity in my sad
eyes! Why are they so sad? Who am I?

What am I doing here? The time is going fast, too fast. I will depart
from my agony without knowing why I am in agony. Is the rain the cause
of my agony?

I don't want to go but I don't want to stay. My heart says yes and the
sun shines again and I can see the sun. My mind says no. Was the rain
here because of me?

What am I doing here? If I only wanted something, perhaps my mind would
not go so crazy. Is the sun the cause of my agony?

I don't want to go but I don't want to stay. My heart says no and the
gale blows again and I can feel the gale. My mind says yes. Was the sun
here because of me?

What am I doing here? If I only wanted nothing, perhaps my mind would
not go so sane. Is the gale the cause of my agony?

I don't want to go but I don't want to stay. My heart says something
and it rains again and I can see the rain. My mind says nothing. Was
the gale here because of me?

Why do I care?

I look to the mirror&;#8230;what do I see? Such intensity in my sad
smile! Why is it sad? Who I am?

I care!

I wonder why&;#8230;why can't I feel complete? How can I find the
real me, if there is one?

I lit a candle, to allow myself to see me and I want to take myself
down to a place near the river and find the real me but I fail...who I
am?

And now here I am in this place surrounded by trees&;#8230;and the
mind v nature will begin.

The sun spends the one-minute above me and smiles to me, warms me,
loves me and hates me.

Then the gale comes and sings to me, and frees me, loves me and hates
me.

Then the rain comes and hurts me, and loves me, and hates me and cries
with me.

They stay with me even knowing that I am half crazy. Is it maybe why
they want to stay here?

Now, all these miles away and that one time eclipse of strange
connection&;#8230;I feel I understand us both though I barely know
your beautiful land.

I close my eyes and I still can see the beauty of your
nature&;#8230;my heart pounds but my mind is still insane.

I close my eyes and I still can see the strange of your nature...my
heart pounds but my mind is still sane.

And I go on&;#8230;wondering too much...wanting too
much&;#8230;
And you go on&;#8230;making insane mind sane&;#8230;making sane
mind insane&;#8230;

But thank you land for letting me to see such beauty&;#8230;
Thank you sun for my determination and fuelling my fire...
And thank you gale for your inspiration and my
feelings&;#8230;
Thank you rain for letting me cry with you&;#8230;though I failed
again.