Secrets
By sarahv
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The pictures still haunt and taunt me,
The images just will not go away
And now that I've spoken about it
I've had to face it in the broad light of day.
It was my past - secure and secret
My burden to carry and bear
By talking that burden should've lightened -
It should have helped that you know and care.
Instead its unravelled hideous memories
Made me remember, relive, made me scared.
I had forgotten, ignored my dark secret
Its caused me such pain to remember and share
These innermost thoughts and feelings
This darkeness, loneliness and fear
I want to help you understand me
Yet I'm frightened to let you too near.
Now that I've told you I'm more frightened
Than when it was just me alone
I'm afraid to let you inside this
Afraid you'll be hurt when you're shown
The nightmare I'm currently living
The thoughts I cannot deny
It seeps into each tiny crevice
And do to protect you I must try
To shield you from what I have learnt
Protect you from the emotions I feel
But now that I have told you
The past has suddenly become real
I want to you to help and to guide me
To help me find and light my way
Yet I also must never hurt you
You must forgive me for I must push you away
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