barrier girl

i've always acted like things were easy for me
there was nothing i couldn't handle
i found that's not what others always want to see
and so the flame was taken from my candle

people often told me that i had changed
i completely despised those words
unknowingly, i made life complicated and derranged
all simplicity was given to the birds

i on;ly displayed feelings that brought me attention
anxiety, depression, illness and hate
i tried to show off anything of my invention
but my way of life wasn't always that great

i met a person who's one of a kind
who brought me feelings only felt by few
i never realised that i might find
that his spirit would teach me something new

he was all i ever wanted, yet i would not submit
'cos non-attention seeking feelings were rife
my barrier holding act was not fit
not loving was the wosrt mistake to date of my life