Please Come Back
By uppercase
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Pain, the worst kind of pain hits me in the heart and travels warp
speed to my brain. I'm staggered with disbelief. How could he say those
things to me? Why couldn't he just say I'm leaving, it's over and walk
away? Leave me with some dignity I deserved at least that much.
I stayed with him through the alcholic fog that he choose to live in
for three long years,believing that one day he would stop drinking.
Four times in rehab, four times of having my hopes and dreams
shattered. I blamed myself for his weakness, loving him with all my
heart and soul, wondering what I did wrong this time.
Now he's met someone better than me he says. He met her at rehab she
understands what he's been going through. He says he finally figured it
out. I was the problem. I was the reason he couldn't stay sober. I
screwed up his life. Brenda, he says will give him the support he
needs, love him the way he needs to be loved, and trust him the way I
never did.
The whole time he was in rehab I drove thirty miles one way every
visiting day to see him. I did without things I needed to make sure he
had his smokes, and treats from the snack machines.
I'm not sure I can take this. Your heart can't help who it loves and he
is my heart. What will I do know? If one more person tells me "you
don't need him in your life" I will start screaming and never
stop.
He needed me and I was always there for him he knows that. If the good
Lord wills it he will come back to me. We'll start over again this time
things will be different I'll change, I can change, if he'll just give
me one more chance.
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