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Experiences

Tell me are experiences meant to be shared?
Or can they remain a secret never to be told
Would me doing this mean I was ruthless?
Dishonest or cold
Would I be breaking a commandment?
Or one of societies golden rules
Would you think of me as dishonest?
If some events remained disclosed
Though many of my experiences
That I have faced in the past
I have buried in a room
Specially created deep inside of me
The door to this room locked securely
However, I never created the key
Does this mean I am spineless?
Worthless and weak?
There are no past actions
Of which I am ashamed
I have committed no offences
Inflicted nobody no pain
I have not been declared
Medically insane
Experiences are the same as memories
You get the good ones and the bad
Recollections of most past experiences
My limbs involuntary stiffen
I lose my ability of speech
Faster than a hurricane
Would sweep you off your feet
I'm not being dishonest ruthless or cold
Maybe for now I am admitting defeat
Nevertheless, one day I will create the key
That will open the door
And release all the pain and anguish
Buried deep inside of me
When I have found the strength to do this
Please be there for me

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