Why me, myself and I?

Why me, myself and I?

ME: It is Sunday morning and the sun in shining through the leaves on the tree outside this window and as the breeze moves the leaves the sunlight flutters around me. In many ways the fluttering of the light mirror my thoughts as I approach this blog this morning.

The path to spiritual development seems to be one that has nothing to do with visits to a hardware store, supermarkets ' daily living. Somehow I manage to keep it separate either encased in mediation rituals, or in the dialogue between me, myself and I that has become this blog.

Why me, myself and I?
Well me if the day-to-day me, the one who shops, works and pays her bills.
Myself is that point of consciousness outside of me, my personality if you like, that takes a more objective view of my life, almost as if it is from some higher observation point. Easily cynical, often critical (I hear my mothers tone in that voice very often) but also discriminating ' my guard against becoming a space cadet if you like.

Then there is the I ' my link with spirit which comes on the heels of meditation, or in the throes of a meditative state when I am on the computer.

Before engaging in this process of conscious spiritual development I would say that the trinity, that is those facets of me, looked like this:

MYSELF

ME I

On a bad, beat yourself up for being useless day I would be led by by critic, my cynic.

But on a 'I feel good about the world day. It would feel like this :

ME

MYSELF I

(Critic in its rightful place.)

Now, though this process of dialogue, I am attempting to create a balance that looks more like this:

I

MYSELF ME

Where spirit has more prominence and ' as I am working with the concept of spiritual energy flowing down ' where the energy that I engage with first is spiritual motivation, rather than the more critical or prosaic motivations. .

However, all three aspects are important and need to be aligned through this process. There is no point in being so spiritual I forget to eat, and so prosaic I see only the pavement and not the sky. I must also keep my wits about me, there is a lot of spiritual mis-guidance out there, so maintaining a healthy critic is essential.

I: Good explanation the triangle is always the strongest structure and so strengthening one aspect at the expense of the others would be a mistake.

You are on this Earth to learn the lessons of humanity and therefore it is no good avoiding the difficulty and the pain because it is there that you will find your lessons. Good and evil. Light and dark are both necessary for the progression of the soul, and in order to progress you need to work on your personality so that what you learn, you can share in a way that people can hear.

MYSELF: But why would anyone want to listen to the self-indulgent whimpers of another? They have problems of their own to sort out.

I: If there is any reason at all for listening, or reading, it is because there is a resonance in the struggle and some comfort in the development of understanding that is being shared. If there is neither resonance, nor comfort, then the reaction may well be to turn away from the words.
That is fine, not every life has an imperative towards spiritual development, although all have the capacity for spiritual development.

ME: There is such a sense of isolation involved in this work, in trying to work with energies that are so fine they could so easily be the threads of imagination and self-delusion. How different is it from schizophrenia, having conversations with different aspects of yourself?

I: It is a matter of degree and physical and intellectual grounding. Some of the sanest things are said in moments of madness. How often has a 'mad' person seen an aura, a changing pool of energy and yet what they have seen has been interpreted as a symptom of ill health, not a psychic ability.

But that brings us back to the importance of the triangle, or being able to integrate the lessons of the soul, with the personality and the practical will of the person. You know from your crystal work that the deeper you place your feet (metaphorically) in the Earth, the higher you can allow your consciousness to go.

ME: But that all takes confidence and in order to share this knowledge with others you have to overcome so much of their scepticism and disbelief, that it sometimes makes me feel as if I am dirt on their shoe.

I: That is why you have trodden the paths of scepticism yourself. You have a short memory if you think you have always embraced these concepts, even the basic concept of a spirit world, of life after death. It suited you then to disparage these beliefs and to mock those who did believe.

MYSELF: That was because my mother preferred spirit to me, and to looking after me when I was child. She also made me feel as if everything was ordained and planned and that I had no choice or free will at all.

I: Whatever the path taken to reach an understanding and acceptance of the spirit world, and a belief that there is a purpose to life on Earth, it is a path that enables you to see and have compassion for the struggles of others as they come close.

It is possible for the soul to approach, but for the personality to spit nails as it approaches.

It is also possible for the soul to recognise truth, but for the personality to stop them ever exploring that truth.

It is possible for the soul and the personality to recognise the path they should be on, but for the practical challenges of life to prevent them ever placing a foot on the path towards fulfilment.

There are so many valid reasons to avoid the struggle. You are beginning to engage and sort through the shrapnel that you have, and still are, putting in your own path. Perhaps your next blog should be about the benefits that you have already gained.

It is easy to forget the changes, to overlook the benefits and to concentrate on the struggle. But our challenge to you is to think about how your life has been changed by even starting this dialogue.