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Somewhere you are easy.

Somewhere you are
Still beautiful
Somewhere you are
Findable.

Somewhere your smile
Bursts into laughter.

You are all around me

I can't see you

Only on the backs of my
Eyelids.
In the glisten of
The insides of my palms.

In the shrill of the
Last night's wind.
In the cellars
Of my childhood.

In my mind's
Rustle.
In the fog
Of sweet death.

I try not to disremember you

To keep you
Alive in me.

Love, lost

Somewhere, you are new,
Somewhere you are still beautiful.