The "mistake"

i had a knot in my stomach
yours had a hearbeat
said a thousand silent prayers while
the clock ticked one minute
forward and two back
told all
the funny stories
i knew
made you forget
for a moment at a time
i went through it too
only i was the lucky one who
got to sit in
the waiting room
i couldn't believe
that they could tell either
a boy
not a lump
of faceless
formless
cells