Loving You

The world spins round, as does my head.
Spinning. Turning. Spinning. Turning.
Dizzy.
Loving you hurts my head and heart in ways you could never
imagine.
Pouring in from all directions, so many feelings, so many aches and
pains, so many tears.
Love is wonderful....when someone returns it.
When they dont, it feels like thousands of knifes stabbing at my heart
continuously night after night, day after day. I stare at the phone,
trying to make it ring. Nothing. You don't love me.
YOU HATE ME!
Crying into my pillow at night releases all my pain and worries.
Just for a second.
Then they all come flooding back to me as I fall asleep, creating
nightmares.
Loving you is the hardest thing I've ever had to encounter. But its
also the best.
The way you smile at me, the way you look at me as to say I was
special.
That makes me feel special. Sweeps me off my feet.
I love you. I will always love you. Now and always. Forever more.
Amen.