friends

one of my therapists
once told me: "it's about
not letting your emotions control
you. it's about keeping your thoughts up here,
and your emotions
down there."

today, i woke up in the morning.
i didn't sleep in until 4 in the afternoon.
and i texted my friends. and they texted back.
and i got lunch with my mum. and then i hung
out and ate supper with my friend. we watched
a movie at the new theatre, and when it was over
with, it was raining, cold, and we had to run to the car.
we laughed and she laughed even harder at me when
I was out of breath. and her passenger door handle
is broken off, so she had to lean over and open it
for me. she took a brief second to look up at me and smile,
and i'm saying that's the moment i would choose to
live in for eternity.

she proceeded to buy me a chocolate shake, an old,
childish ritual of ours, and we sat in the parking lot
and laughed our asses off as we danced to a song.
she didn't judge me for my awful moves. and while
she did laugh at my singing, it wasn't harshly. it
was a warm feeling, and i would like to hang it up
as my sun. as a reminder that i've got scars, but
they don't know who i am. as a reminder that bad
days will dawn, but there will always be a friend.