What I felt when I saw my mom smiling

This feeling breaks me down when I remember that I have not done anything for you. Life has always showed difficult phases but never in life there is that moment when u feel that ok I am really happy. The smile on the face, the satisfaction in heart, everything I just fake.

There should be that moment in life, at least once that I got what I have always wanted. The days are going on and on but the days never showed what one always wanted.

It has been a tough life with lots of experience about how one person can change your entire life, about what a money is, about the reflection of people when they know you are weak, about waiting for the real day on life, about the real happiness, about trying to pretend in front of people that yes I am happy and many more.

When I see your smile I feel this smile could have lasted forever but the situation always takes it away. Patience to hold on with patience is decreasing day by day and I am here trying to find out what actually can be done but left with none ideas in mind.

All I ever wanted in my life was to live for you, give you all the happiness, be with you always, I be the reason for your happiness but never I could do that before and my struggle to do that is breaking me into pieces.