Untitled Soliloquy

Untitled Soliloquy

Angry, hurt, disappointed
That's how I feel
About what you're doing to me

Remember me?
The one you said may be "the one"
The one with whom you had lots of fun
The one on whom you bestowed tender kisses
The one who is content to fall asleep in your arms.

What really went wrong?
I can't know for sure
It may be that you're just a bit insecure
about me.

Was it really the letter?
Or was that just a flimsy excuse
To detangle yourself from me,
from what I feel for you.

I can scarcely fathom how you can
be so cold
To someone with whom you've shared
so much of your soul

Was what we had just a cruel hoax?
Was I just a game you played for fun?

Or would you like me to think that was
the case
To make it easy for you to escape
from my loving.

But I know you more than you think
I do
I see through that cold, hard, enigmatic
you
And I know that you are afraid of what you feel
for me
If this is not how you dreamt
you'd ever be
Then the only decent thing
left to do
Would be just
to tell me
And I will understand
And I will let you go
Then I could be cleansed
By the bitter-sweet pain
of having known
and lost
you
My very special friend
My soul mate