Growing Barbiturates

I lost faith today
From sleeping well they say
At home I pass out
I just can't shut my mouth
If I drink warm water, my bowel would just complain
If I chewed an apple, my gums would do the same
Now I ache all over, from being awake too soon
So I'll sleep in my lessons, as opposed to in my room
All I want is a smile
That I can use every day
To convince myself
I don't mean what I say
Comfort comes but so do I
My eyes bleed before they cry
Fury grows and so does hate
Regret blossoms all too late