Liar

You lied. Don't lie about that.
You lied. Don't pretend about that.
I'm sick of excuses,
I'm sick of my own tears.
When you look at another guy,
I'm just living in fear.
You say it won't happen again,
And why cannot I trust you?
Well gimme one damn reason.
Sigh. You're right.
I love you.

Was he good? Or rather was he better than me?
Was his technique just the same,
or did he do it differently?
I can't stop thinking of him inside you,
It just makes me sick,
I'm all for second chances,
But I fell like my head's just been smashed with a brick!
Sigh. You're right.
I love you.

Oh, I'm glad you told me.
I should at least credit you that.
You say I should forgive you.
Well, you would say that.
And I know it happened six months ago,
But they lied when they said time was a healer.
It just makes you think even more.
Sigh. But you're right.
I love you.

So you want to leave me?
You think I'm unfair?
Because it was so long ago?
And now I shouldn't even care?
But you could still be lying,
And cheating on me.
You're right this is obsession.
I'm obsessed with wanting to be loved for real.
Sigh. You're wrong.
I hate you.