Like a Menarche

You can't even face me today
You know I'm not as good as him
I wasn't there when you cut your wrists
I didn't save you from suicide
Your just afraid of being alone
You employed me for self-esteem
Although I had none of my own
You found some to waste away for me
Our love is like a menarche
The start of a bleeding hurt cycle
Together we'll exist menstrually
You can continue to crucify me
I didn't fuck you like he did
You know deep down you hate me
You play this blank and yellow game
So you can weed out my happiness
I'm so fucking weak I can't get out
Everything I say is so I hear it back
Everything you say is to hear me sigh
Well here's another idea for you
How about I walk away and die
As if I had the strength you loved
To kill yourself and by your words
Laugh it off with a fake smile
You don't care so why cry
But I can't leave you alone
You've destroyed everything that was me
I'd rather be with you than dead passive
What I'm trying to say to you is
Oh never mind just forget it