My life aint worth living

my face is soaked
from the tears falling down
i wish you were with me
to wipe them away
and to hold me close
to make me okay

i need to be with you
to let go of my pain
i cant take it anymore
im going insane
without you my life aint worth living
i dont know if i can go on without you 
dont know if i cant keep giving

without you
my life would deminish
baby, i need you here by my side
to hold me, to kiss me
to love and caress me

i need to release this
the pain deep inside
i need to runaway
to your arms and hide
when i am with you
the calmness i feel
is just so intense
almost unreal



i cant stand the thought 
of bein alone
of bein so cold
the vision of the knife
laying in my drawer
grows sharper and sharper
till i cant take it anymore

i reach for the handle
the blade catches the light
my wrists start to tingle
as the picture catches my sight
as i bend to pick it up
i drop the knife on the bed
and draw the comfort 
from you smile
instead.