Which way will I fall&;#063;

Deciding which way to go..
Which door to open,
Who to take with you,
Who to leave behind.
A push-me-pull-you,
Magic roundabout,
A tightrope,
With no start nor end.
Who do I trust?
To which smiles do I succumb?
Who do I give my hand?
And to whom do I run?
Looking for answers,
To clues self-penned.
Chasing rainbows,
I have no wish to find.
Searching for a reason to live,
Among so many lost soles,
Floating my choice,
My own best friend.
How much longer..
Before I decide to fall,
And on which side,
And if ever,
at all?