Addiction

My head is spinning like im on a neverending roundabout,
My hands are shaking, this isnt natural.
My head is telling me to give in but i can't
I won't. There is too much at stake.
I wish i had nevr started yet i wish i had never stopped.
I can't think straight, my eyes are uzzy.
I don't know where i am anymore.
maybe im in another dimesion where the room naturally spins and objects
normally come alive.
or maybe i am dead and this is hell.
No hell was on earth not here.
I beg the Goddess to make it stop, i figured she would have abandoned
me long before now.
Then i see it, the shiney sharpe glowing dagger. its so beautiful, i
dont know why i didn't notice it before.
I make a swft grab and miss, i try again but slower, it feels cool in
my sweaty palms
One slice and it could all be over.
Home here i come...