Time Doesn't Heal

They tell you that it gets better with time. That's what they always
say, that and other tired cliches. Why can't they tell the truth. It
never goes away, because you can't have one happy memory without it
triggering feelings of loss and despair. I've never been able to cope
with this emptiness that being without him causes. We've been apart
before and I couldn't cope then, why should it be different now that
it's permanent? Of course you're thinking that someone's died, because
what could be worse that that?
I think being dumped is much, much worse. When someone dies you know
they loved you for as long as they could, you know they wouldn't have
chosen to go unless they were in great pain. You don't have to live
with the fact that they're perfectly happy without you, enjoying their
new-found freedom. That right at this moment they're probably laughing
with a friend while you're crying with grief. Maybe they've even found
someone new already. A replacement for you only not just that but an
improvement. Some girl with a perfect figure and sunny personality. And
all of his friends will like her, even the arse-holes. She'll never
have people shouting at her, telling her she's a cunt. She'll never
worry that you're looking at other girls, because she'll be confident
that she's the best you've ever had. She won't be jealous of your exes,
especially not the last one. What's to be jealous of, he dumped her the
week before Christmas? They might have been together for four years but
he couldn't have cared about her to do that.