Loving a Lie

I strive for oblivion to blank out a name
How can I forget her and still remain sane
She once was the meaning of my happy world
But happiness has left me, alone and unfurled

Why did I believe that this could ever last
I let myself be taken and lured oh so fast!
Am I the fool to surrender without retreat
Or was there a purpose in such naked deceit

I cringe at my weakness for this seemed so real
I try to be cynical and dismiss what I feel
But still I must suffer and return to the pain
As I wallow in pity and recall her disdain

I never found out why this lie had evolved
My mind will ask questions but never be solved
I dwell on the memory of words said so straight
I no longer love you, I have found my Soul Mate