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"I really need you" greeted his ears when he picked up the telephone
and said "hello." This brought both a smile and a grimace to Brads
face. The smile because he was really glad to hear from Dark, and the
grimace because of the sudden thoughts racing through his head thinking
about what she meant by "I really need you." Both were living day to
day in bad relationships his bad really and her just empty, and both
carried a lot of extra baggage but they were crazy about one another
and seemed to be a source of unexpected comfort. The two had become
close. It was not all about sex although the sex was extraordinary the
one time they had it. There was such passion and fire between the two
it was unmistakable when you saw them together. The problem was you
hardly saw them together.

Both had spouses to deal with and a need to avoid confrontation both
professionally and personally. There was this unwritten code of decency
Brad lived up to especially concerning his family, his children really.
Dark well there was another story she was trying to outgrow a wild
streak that has followed her for years. Though not as bad as reputation
would have it she was pretty tough and street wise and meeting Brad
seemed to ground her just a little. Despite their situations they were
good for one another and very good together.

"Do you remember the first time we had sex?" she asked him next. "Of
course I do why would you even ask me such a thing?" He heard Darks
little giggle and figured she was up to something as usual. This always
excited him because he never knew what she was going to do next. "I've
been thinking about it a lot every detail every second." This jogged a
memory or two for Brad right then as well. "Yeah me too baby me too."
Brad always did feel a little bad about making love to Dark for the
first time in the back of an old pickup truck parked down by the lake
even though she always said she was fine with it she loved having sex
in the outdoors anyway. It just wasn't what Brad wanted for a "first
time" memory. He felt such passion and deep emotion for Dark and longed
to show her that side of him as well. They had only made love once and
the event never left the minds of either of them.

The back of the truck was fine with both at the time. Dark never
expected much intimacy and romance she never got too much experience
with it. Mostly it was just sex. Brad however was the deep one the
emotional one he made love to a woman when he cared about her and
really wanted her to be fulfilled and happy. The talked a lot got
closer all the time because of it. Distance and circumstance made any
actual contact between the two very often nearly impossible. They liked
each other and wanted it to work so it did, at least so far. Things has
built up between them for so long that the back of the truck was as far
as they made it really doing well to have pulled off of the road at
all. It was raw emotion for sure the kind that kept the memories and
the fires smoldering.

It had been a while since they saw each other and both were excited
about the plan to meet. Dark was very attracted to Brad his gentle
demeanor his great passion he was very unselfish always making a point
to make Dark feel good about things mainly about herself. This really
was a different experience for her. She had a difficult time accepting
it and a more difficult time believing it. The thing about Brad that
really won Dark over was his tone the way he spoke to her he would tell
her stories and sing to her softly just seemed he was always reciting
beautiful things to her and this for sure was different and comforting
to her. He made her feel as if he could make love to her with words and
that sex was not part of the vocabulary. For Brad, Dark was the daring
the different the wandering lost soul he wanted to reach out and grab
hold of. She stirred life into him she let him know he was alive and
needed. She made him feel like it was safe to care again that it was
safe to reach out to her this was a difficult thing to do for Brad.
Since meeting Dark he did not often need reminded he was a virile man
and had needs of his own to be met. Brad made love to her so many times
in his head both asleep in dreams and awake in daydreams. He could get
fucked anywhere any time but he wanted and needed to make love and to
do it with Dark. Brad thought a lot about what he was doing and about
the deep complexity of Dark. He often wondered how they got together to
start with. Him feeling the way he did insecure and very withdrawn. He
thought perhaps it was because Dark was just as bad. When they began
talking and began getting closer Brad would joke with her and tell her
to leave a window open even a little bit so he could get in. Dark
always said she had the doors locked for so long she did not know if
she could open them anymore. "As long as you leave a tiny opening in a
window and you reach out and I reach in eventually we will find it
open."

Brad had arranged for a few days off of work and Dark did the same.
Brad often went on short business trips so leaving was not a big deal.
Dark did not really have to provide an explanation she was alone most
of the time anyway. Brad rented a cabin. It was near the place where
they parked the truck and made love the first time. Brad vowed he would
take her back to that place and show her how beautiful it really was.
They were to meet there tomorrow. Darks call to be sure it was still on
and to tell him how much she needed him made it seem further away than
ever. Brad finished out his work day went home trying to avoid any
guilt he might have get some rest and dream about Dark the cabin and
tomorrow.

The drive was not a bad one good road and the destination was about
the halfway point for both Brad and Dark. It did seem like a long 5
hours though. They had agreed to meet at a nearby bait store and go on
in together Dark was glad because she was not sure she would find the
place. Brad was on the lot waiting when she pulled up. He got out of
the car and went to Darks and greeted her with a hug and followed up
with one hell of a kiss. They talked a few minutes and Brad asked if
she was ready to go yet. She followed Brad the 3 miles down the lake
road to the cabin. It was secluded and right at the waters edge there
were many trees it was breathtakingly beautiful. The cabin was rustic
both inside and out .it held all the necessary comforts no more it was
perfect. There was an old wood porch swing next to the front door. The
porch was large and creaked when you walked across it, Dark fell in
love with the place immediately. Brad opened the door and went inside
Dark followed. Once inside Dark's jaw fell open at what she saw.

There were candles lit everywhere, potpourri burning in a simmering
pot there was a bottle of wine in an ice bucket on the table chilling
some old quilts spread out on the floor and several pillows soft music
playing and Dark was almost in tears. Brad stood behind her wrapping
his arms around her pulling her to him "do you like it baby" he asked?
Dark responded telling him she thought he had found the cabin a bit to
easily and neither had been there before. Brad laughed and told her he
wanted to find it before darkness set in and get things ready for her.
It was indeed beautiful and Dark was not sure how to react or what to
do one thing was certain she was deeply touched. This was something no
one had ever done for her before. Brad held her close kissed the side
of her neck and told her he wanted to make things perfect and he wanted
to make love to her.

Dark leaned into Brad she could feel his warmth. Brad raised his arms
and gently cupped each of Darks' breasts and began kissing her neck
along the sides and the back she loved having the back of her neck
kissed. Dark reached up and touched Brads face feeling its smoothness
and his defined jaw then his lips. He gently kissed her fingers as they
passed his mouth. Brad stepped back taking Darks hand and led her to
the quilts on the floor. Dark was standing in front of him and watched
his eyes she saw the need in them this was something she did recognize.
Brad began to unbutton her blouse each button slowly moving it a little
further apart until each button was undone and he slowly opened her
blouse and was looking at her skin since Dark rarely wore a bra that is
what he was looking at SKIN. Her breasts were full and her nipples
stood erect as if she were cold. Brad leaned and ran his tongue lightly
over her nipple then moved to the other his tongue toyed with the
little ring in each one. He had touched her tits the first time but he
did not kiss nor explore them it was so fast and furious but not this
time he thought. Brad kissed his way back up kissing each shoulder and
the front of her throat. Dark laid her head back to allow him to reach
more and heighten the sensitivity. Dark wrapped her arms around him
holding him so close she could feel him growing and that he was getting
very hard. Brad had both hands on her ass and really pulled her close.
Dark spread her legs enough to get one on each side of one of Brad's
legs pushing herself against it and moving so slowly. Brad again
stepped back leading Dark down until she was lying on the quilt. He
removed her sandals and unbuttoned her pants and slid them over her
hips until she was naked. Dark watched Brad as he took off his shirt
then his shoes and socks then his pants and underwear. He was erect and
this was beautiful to her she raised her arms inviting him too her.
Brad knelt at her feet kissed her ankle and her calf with combinations
of kissing and licking worked his way to her thigh then doing the same
back down the other leg then up again. With a hand on each of Darks
hips he moved her legs further apart and knelt between them raising her
up and placing her on his bent knees and thighs. This allowed him to
touch her how he wanted to. Brad moved his hands along he inside of her
thighs then moved a finger along the side of her labia careful not to
touch her beyond that he could actually feel her shiver.

He watched her face her eyes were closed she seemed so lost in what he
was doing her pleasure showed on her face. Brad slid one finger inside
of her slowly and carefully she was wet and so ready for him. Then a
second finger bringing them back out and finding her clit softly rubbed
and moved on it so very easily and gently he watched her hands grip the
edges of the quilt and hold on she lifted herself to greet his strokes
until he stopped, moving himself away from under her hips. Brad guided
her onto her stomach he moved his wet finger between her legs finding
even more wetness. Positioning himself behind her he guided her to her
knees moving them both forward until Dark was positioned against the
back of a couch. He knew how Dark liked to have sex and he wanted her
to like making love the same way.

Moving behind her he slid himself inside it was warm and so wet she
took him easily. Her legs together he pulled her back so she was
against his chest with her head against his shoulder she could lift
herself just enough by holding the back of the couch. Dark knew most
men liked to get behind and have her legs spread with him between this
was great for wild and just fucking with the legs together like this
she could squeeze down get the right angle move how it felt good. Brad
moved one hand to her breast and the other down to where he could reach
her clit and continued kissing and biting her neck a bit more
aggressively. There was no mistake when she came. The sounds she made
as she came closer nearly sent Brad off but he held on. She came hard
he could feel her body clamping down on him and her heat pounding. He
remained very still so he would not come which was hard to do since now
she was touching herself and coming over and over again he thought this
was the most sexy thing he had ever witnessed she was intense as hell
if nothing else. When her body began to relax he pulled out and she
turned to face him. She was smiling and he knew great things were going
to happen. "I am going to fuck you now baby I hope you are ready for
me."
Brad saw the look in Darks eyes it was as though in a trance they were
deep and glassy. Brad felt as it he had made love to this woman with
all he had so intent on brining her pleasure and believed he had but
her words "I'm going to fuck you now" stung like a slap across the
face. It must have shown because Dark watched his expression change and
Brad turn his face from her. "What is wrong Brad have I done something
wrong?" Brad did not want to come across to soft or to serious to Dark
he was sure she could not take it and would run but he really wanted
her to know how he felt and what those words made him feel like. "Brad,
what is it?"

Brad took her hand helping her up and wrapped her in the quilt. "Let's
go outside and talk." They went out to the porch and sat in the old
wood swing covered with the quilt. Brad was very quiet for a while and
only sounds of nature and the song of the water could be heard the only
thing louder was the thoughts running through Brad's head as he
searched for the right words. Dark sat quietly and waited. When he
began talking Dark became a little afraid Brad had tears streaming down
his face and she never could handle that well but she stayed quiet and
listened. Brad began by explaining to Dark how he felt about her this
made her very uncomfortable and he could see that. "Dark, have you not
ever been in love even once?" He didn't wait for an answer he just kept
talking to Dark's relief. "Dark, I am not saying I love you but I care
so much for you I did not come here to have sex with you I wanted to
make love to you, damn it anyway, I did make love to you and I thought
you were feeling the same thing shit, you were having sex again, Dark I
can have sex anytime. I have sex with my wife but I made love to you!"
It was quiet again. Dark did not like the things she was feeling she
knew Brad had been so good to her and put up with her moods and the
fits she would throw. He listened to her never judged her only had sex
with her once so she could not even say that was why he stuck around.
Her sudden confusion and need to cry and hold Brad really messed with
her head. "I have never said that to anyone." Brad asked, "what Dark
what have you never said?" She sat in silence. She was trying to say
the words but just couldn't. "I have never told anyone I care about
them." Brad figured out what she was trying to say, "you can't even say
it now can you? You have never said I love you to anyone have you?"
Silence. "You can't even say make love it's all sex to you isn't it?"
More silence. Tears streamed down her face now and she didn't like it.
Crying was not something she allowed herself to do.

Dark had made love to Brad but she just could not say it. She had made
love before and it always led to great pain in her life, the kind she
did not want to face again and she was crazy about Brad her warped
sense of superstition made her feel that if she let him know how she
felt he would leave, something bad would happen. Using words like sex
or fuck were easy to her it made a man feel distant and somehow that
she was not serious about them no matter how she may have really felt.
She suddenly felt backed into a corner and knew that she was going to
loose Brad now and it would be because he felt used and felt as if she
cared nothing about him. Like he was just another good time. "You are
going to leave me aren't you?" That was always her fear. Being left. So
she usually walked away first. Brad looked over at her and her tears
she looked afraid. He knew enough about her to know she had a hard time
with things like commitment and a lot of how she acted was just that,
an act. He believed now that she was afraid.

Brad put his arm around her shoulder and she laid her head on his
chest. Tears just poured now and she broke into sobs. Like years of
un-cried tears were all rushing to get out at the same time. They both
cried. "I don't want to hurt you Dark, I don't want to leave you. I
just don't understand this I thought I meant something to you. You have
my heart it is all I have to give you." Brad needed very much for her
to comfort him to tell him she cared about him and how she was feeling.
He wondered if she ever could. They sat in silence for a long time. "It
wasn't just sex." Brad looked over at her and she said it again "it
wasn't just sex Brad I thought you could tell I thought you would
know." Brad listened so careful not to stop her, he knew how hard this
was for her but he needed to hear her say it. She needed to be able to
say it. "I don't want you to leave me." Wow, another amazing statement
he sat nearly holding his breath now wishing so hard she could find her
way to him. Brad just pulled her a little closer and remained silent.
"I am afraid you know I am scared to death of this whole thing I don't
know what to do." She got very quiet again. Brad asked "what do you
want to do Dark, what do you want from me?"

Her whole body was trembling especially her hands Brad reached and
held them both beneath the quilt. She was not cold he knew that, she
was afraid. Dark had not felt this way about a man in a long time,
casual was hard on her and she would never admit that to anyone not
even herself. She really did not want to loose Brad she really cared
for him. She knew she would if she could not reach back for the first
time she wanted to reach back and just did not know how. "I don't want
to loose you I always push people away and I don't want to loose you."
This just sort of slipped out desperation was the emotion now but it
was truth. "Dark, I know this is hard for you I am trying to understand
it but I can't let myself get deeper into this thing if you are not
with me it is hard enough trying to see you making excuses living a
lie. I can do it Dark, I can do it if there is an us but I can't it if
is for nothing can't you understand that?" She was silent once more
Brad waited. "Yes I understand it I know how hard it is for you and
what you are doing for me, for us. I want this to work I am trying so
hard I am afraid Brad simply afraid."

"It wasn't sex." Brad looked at her face again she had never looked so
vulnerable before. "Dark did you make love with me inside that cabin?"
He waited for an answer and thought he was not going to get it then
quietly she whispered, "yes, we made&;#8230;love." "Don't be afraid
of me Dark, you have to learn to trust me and to allow yourself to care
for someone, for me. I won't hurt you. You have reminded me to live to
be someone important you make me want to make love I want to see you
when I can I need you Dark but you have to feel something in return."
They were both crying again. "I do Brad, I do feel I just don't know
what it is but I know I want you in my life I need you." Those were
words Dark had not said to anyone in many years Brad suspected that and
knew that was all she could do for now and that she meant it.

"Let's go inside ok it is getting cool out here?" Brad took her hand
and they walked inside. Brad looked different to her now, a little
safer maybe and so full of emotion and passion she saw it before but
did not really look. She kissed him on the mouth and at first Brad
seemed to tense up some she knew he was having some doubts. She kissed
him a little harder and slid her tongue around in his mouth. "Brad, I
want to make love with you." Her eyes were pleading and she stood
before him shaking and so beautiful. He was going to let her make love
to him and this time he knew it.

It was a kiss Brad will not forget it was as if Dark painted her very
soul around his mouth with her tongue. It was still the same deep kiss
he had from her before, it still aroused him but it was somehow
different, very different. Brad responded by holding Dark close to him
and kissing her back. Her breathing was different the little sounds she
made were different her hands on his neck even felt different. Her
tongue and what tears were still falling mixed into a storm that Brad
was about to walk into head first. Dark roamed Brad's body like she had
never touched him before not wanting to miss an inch of him. She
continued kissing him holding him against her. She held her elbows to
his sides and rested her hands on his shoulders and held on like he was
going to slip through her fingers. Brad felt very cared for right then
and did not want to go anyplace.

Dark took Brad by the hand and led him into the tiny bedroom, she had
never had sex on a bed before always said she wouldn't. Brad knew this
about her and when she led him to the bed he hesitated asking her if
she was sure. "I am sure Brad, I can make love on a bed if I am with
you." Brad lay across the bed and watched Dark's face as she battled
the last of her demons she looked so afraid to place her body on that
bed but he wanted her to. Dark took a deep breath and closed her eyes
and lowered herself on the bed and then across Brad. The kissing and
touching between them was intense and passion raging. Dark wanted
nothing more than to please Brad at that time. The deepest, most
passionate kisses on his lips and mouth gently licking his nipples and
kissing the center of his chest. Her action showed hunger a hunger for
him now out of control.

Dark positioned herself and deeply inhaled as Brad entered her. He was
so still afraid to move for fear she would come to some realization of
what she was doing. Dark knew exactly what she was doing. She began to
move so slowly, small tiny circular motions while pushing her hips
forward accepting him deeper inside of her. So slowly. Brad bent his
legs so Dark could wrap her arms around them extending her legs out
straight he could get no deeper inside of her now. Dark moved her body
forward and lifted so slightly then back toward his legs again using
his knees for leverage. When Dark began to tire this way she came
forward laying her chest and head on Brads chest and continued grinding
herself against him keeping him deep inside. What she was doing to him
made Brad feel as if he were going to explode inside of her he did not
want to do that yet.

Brad lifted Darks face toward his kissed her deeply and rolled them
over where they were on their sides and facing one another he continued
kissing her. Brad lifted one of her legs and placed it over his hip
reached down between the spread legs and found an intense heat and the
wetness he knew he would. Brad found Dark's swollen clit and touched
her so carefully. He moved his thumb across it slow and never changed
pace despite Darks thrusts forward each faster and harder. He knew how
close she was. Brad stopped rolling over and Dark found herself under
Brad. Brad kissed her breast wrapping his tongue teasingly around her
nipple. Brad kneeled between Darks now fully spread legs sliding both
hands and arms under her hips lifting her. Brad slid his tongue deeply
inside of Dark careful not to touch her clit, he moved his tongue
slowly then rapidly in and out of her Dark found herself lifting and
arching to meet his wonderful gift. Dark found herself crying as her
feelings were so intensified. Brad moved his tongue to Darks clit now
and licked first hard then easy sliding his tongue back inside and then
up to her clit again. Dark's orgasm was so intense her entire body
stiffened and felt as if it has been jolted with some sort of
electricity. Dark did not hide her pleasure not that she could her
screams were like a song to Brad her taste sweet and so warm. Dark did
not even wonder anymore about the tears running off of her cheeks
now.

Brad lowered her down to the bed came forward and put himself slowly
inside of Dark, he could feel her pulsating and it was as if it were
her entire body every muscle bearing down on him. Dark wrapped her legs
around Brad and pulled him closer feeling every part of him move deeper
into her and then back out. His rhythm increased and she watched his
face and his closed eyes she knew he needed to cum. Brad moved faster
and harder his breathing was faster and deeper. Brad came and Dark
continued to move her self against his sensitivity now making Brad
nearly crazed she felt him throbbing and knew that heat that wetness
yet she continued to move herself around him until he could take no
more.

Brad moved off of Dark and lay next to her. Dark reached her hand over
to Brad and felt the slick wetness on his body she stroked him softly
working her hand along his shaft she could feel his body jerk and
contract she knew he had been fully pleased. Dark tasted the mixture of
their juices on Brad's body. Dark snuggled in next to Brad he held on
to her like he never had before. The open window in the tiny bedroom
allowed a cool night breeze off of the water to enter the room. Dark
realized she had finally left the window open and now she knew exactly
what he meant.

THE END