Wishing

The silence came after/ it was worse than before/ at least there's
some peace when you're screaming/
knowing it's not your fault doesn't make it alright/ it doesn't stop
the pain/ thinking it is your fault gives you someone to blame/ someone
you can punish when the moment is long gone/
confusion reigns supreme in the mind of the 'blessed'/ fear and hope/
hope and fear/ fear of the intimacy which, should it come/ brings back
the night/ the pain/ the song/ hating yourself for feeling this
way/
oblivion is sweet/ it coats your world in mist/ it blunts all the
thoughts/ the actions which bring back the deed/ bring back the
pain/
Cold/ I feel cold/ Hot/ I am Hot
I wish I were someone else/ somewhere good/
somewhere else/ someone good.