To the one who got away.

I was the kind of person who loved alot, trusted alot. Hence, this being me, I have been in quite a few relationships, and I gave myself to all of them. Sometimes getting in return only a part of them, sometimes none. You, my love, were the one that gave me all he had. Not just your heart, but your body, your soul, everything. In more simpler terms, you gave me your words, your time, your commitment and your love. We didn’t last long, call it bad luck, call it circumstances, or just growing apart, it hurt. And not just it-hurt-i-was-sad,  it hurt like how people who have lost in love and life talk about, like how it dawns on you, one day at a time, you aren’t there for me anymore.

I wasn’t angry at you when you left, i was angry at the universe, i was angry at how two people so perfect together were ruined only because the world didn’t want us to be together? Time was never our friend, when we met, we knew it would be hard, we knew it wasn’t going to be all roses for us, but we wanted us too bad to let anything change our minds. And we did fight, for so long, but then a time came when our love just became too much for the world to handle. 

But you taught me well, you taught me how to stand up, you taught me how to face my fears. You were the one who told me how much worth i am, you taught me how to love myself.  Our love, was so simple, yet so consuming. So deep, but yet so superficial. You used to look at me like I'm some kind of magic, and in those moments I knew what we had was something the world wasn’t ready for, and I had never been more sure of someone. This world didn't deserve a love like ours.

All those cheesy love songs used to feel like they’re made just for us.  And later on, the same felt for the sad, soul crushing ones. 

Those stories of how people wish to bump into each other years later and look them in the eye, and everything falls right into place with them? I want that. I want that so badly for us. Because I know were perfect together, were like two pieces of a puzzle who just fit. So different, but incomplete without each other. I want to look into your eyes sometime in life again, and see that sparkle, that joy of love, and tell you every bit of what this cruel world made us go through was worth it. 

But till then my love, I'm gonna wish you every single ounce of happiness in this world. Because you light up the lives of so many people with that perfect smile of yours. I wish you find someone who makes you so happy you can't contain it. And I know we don't see each other anymore, but I know there'll always be a piece of my heart in yours, and yours in mine. Even after years have passed by, I'll know that we'll always have our little infinity and  that it's something I can live with for my entire lifetime, something I will eternally be grateful for.