anal

driven
face
down
into the
bed
into the
pillow
hands out
squeezing the
sheets for
all dear
life---
she didn’t
plan on
this &
yet this is
what
happened &
what could
be comparable
for a heterosexual
man,
who wants
satisfaction in his
sexual
demands?

what has she
asked of him
that comes even
close?
she says in retrospect
that she squeezes her
eyes shut &
just
wants
it
to
be over---
and this is in something
consensual.

using the pain as
sexual currency,
saying that she lets him
when he’s a
good boy,
her operant conditioning
is a catch-22 &
yet,
what would happen if she
went to her drawer &
got a steel dildo,
spiked for pain &
asked the very same of
him?