a gullible day

done your best to believe the lies down on your knees sewing up your eyes crying but the tears refuse to flow because more than you they know that nothing comes out but less than smoke & behind you all the laughing faces continue to agree that there’s nothing left but you & me & sorry for you but i cashed in i’m on the last flight out of here so it’s you & yourself & you the only way you got is through so i think it’s time for you to make a decision.

DECISIONS ARE HARD FOR YOU ALWAYS HAVE BEEN YOU GET ON THE DIVING BOARD READY TO JACKKNIFE OFF BUT YOU NEVER LOOK BEFORE YOU BEEN LEAPIN’ INSTEAD YOU TUNE INTO THE RADIO YOU WATCH THE NEWS YOU READ ALL THE PAPERS YOU’RE DESTINED TO LOSE YOU CLOSE YOURSELF OFF FROM YOUR FRIENDS YOU CUT YOURSELF OFF FROM YOUR FAMILY YOU BACK YOURSELF DOWN IN A HOLE YOU BELIEVE ALL THE LIES YOU CAN AND SAVE THE OTHERS FOR A MORE GULLIBLE DAY.

the following is in italics for those that do not know: so how many years have you listened to everyone else & come up empty? how many years have you put your faith in what everyone else says that you should have & ended up with less than you began with? how many times did you sit on santa’s lap only to find out that he is a fake? how many times down on your knees to get a prayer answered only to get slapped in the face & kicked in the ribs? how many times did you nestle under the covers hoping that the boys in uniform would save you only to hear them come crashing at your door with their warrants their clubs, their guns, telling you you’re a whore? how many times did they try n’ get you to lick the ice cold pole on the playground in the middle of the winter? how many times did you do it?

THE FOLLOWING IS NOT IN ITALICS BUT IS IN BOLD WRITING WITH ALL CAPS: SO HOW MANY MOMENTS HAVE YOU BEEN FULFILLED IN THIS LIFE CONSTANTLY TRYING TO RELATE TO OTHERS WHO IN ALL SHAPE N’ FORM SEEM WAY WAY OFF EVEN SO MUCH AS TO SAY MAYBE POSSIBLY SADISTS? MAYBE POSSIBLY EVEN MURDERERS? AT BEST THEY MAYBE POSSIBLE ARE THE WORST KIND OF CHARLATANS OUT THERE IN THE CHARLATAN CASSEROLE, NO?

it’s all found relevant on a gullible day. our quickest way round is in the most contorted & chaotic way. our biggest fumble is the straightest path. our longest run off the shortest pier is the one in which we come up empty. only you know more than yourself & sadly, that is absolutely positively

NOTHING.