Be Alone..

I wake up in sweat
Screaming your name

My dream so real

Left me with tears and reality

I cant shake my feelings

Ones that are so strong

What will I do without you.

What will I do with this pain

In the bottom of my empty belly

Should I cry

Should I die...

My dream was so real,

thats what is painful

you were there

You really were

You were there next to me

Loving Me, Holding Me

Now you are just there

An empty soul

I look up to see if youve turned around

Turned around to see my frozen tears

Tears that are so easy to see

Written all over my face

Now I wake up to life

Life without you..

It wasnt my fualt

If it were up to me

Wed be together now

Wed be in love..

Id make sure of it

But you walked forward

Or maybe backwards

Either way

I feel left behind

Left behind from your plans

From you future, from your love

Why was I the one to get left behind

Why Me?

You know me, you know my past

And how I want my present and future to be

But you rewrote me

You added but reinvented my name

You twisted and turned me

And left me

I guess Ill keep falling

Till theres no more left of me

No more left of memories

Where no one remembers my name

Much less where they knew me from

They know nothing of my name

Unless its one of the new girls

That just moved to town

Ill sink farther in my hole..

Calling out everyones names

But my pain and sorrow will drown them out

Ill be nothing

Ill be darkness

ill go back to alone

Ill be with me......

Where again no one loves me

No one cares or even knows me

I wont care Ill be free

I wont let anyone else in

No one to rewrite my past again

If theres no one to be let in

Ill build my walls

Very Very tall

Bricks of my affection

No more to be shattered to the ground

I swear to myself Ill never love again

And Ill be ok..Ill be dark..Ill be me

Ill be alone.............