Question- If I do.....

If I Do??.

I've got an excuse in my top pocket
I think I'll pull it out like a hanker chief.
Stops me from doing what I want,
But hey at least I can say,
It was fated, I was held - stopped
From doing what my potential had fore told.
At least I have the 'If only's ' and
Don't have to face the fact. I have
The ability. I can and I should
I will do and do.
Shit what an expectation is on me Now.
I like to hide, a face in the crowd.
A shy non-entity, that doesn't say, (or) challenge the egos that
may.
Just let be what is be.
No focus on me. Thank god.
I couldn't cope with the hope/pressure,
the eyes, the expectant awe, that is the thrill
Of the control, the bated breath, and it all.
Just let me be, M-e.
Little 'ole me.
The one who won't say 'Boo'
But both you and me know I can.
"If only".