U forgave me

you died 2 months ago
you fueled my hatred for this world and for him

i'm like a foolish dancing flame waiting to be quenched by your
wisdomatic touch of love

you left behind you nothing but a 2 roomed hole..he's taken that too
now..i hate him for that

you were truly a great artist a beautifull mind

your crafts hang on my walls
your pictures on my board
your memories in my thoughts
carved into my heart
the mistakes scarred into my soul

i made mistakes ..i didnt wnat to forgive or respect him
you taught me to forgive, respect and love..but i was too angry with
them to do

i talked to you 3 hours before u left
i cryed on the phone and asked you to forgive me..u were happy and told
me that you were never actually upset with me..you forgave..a long time
ago. u wished me well and then blessed me

you died in mothers arms..
u kissed her as you died..i wish i could have been there
i miss you

i try to cover up the pain
with foolish smiles
and laughs for them
but i just dont gain

i cut myself to feel
the amnosity of pain you suffered
to think how you did
to feel how you did
to suffer like you did
it brings me closer to you

i dream of you everynight
you sit and smile
but say nothing
i wonder what it is your trying to say
i think its me...i fell im guilty
i cant live with a guilty conscience anymore
so just answer me this

are you happy where you are?
its all that matters

please come back someday
u've forgotten me, please dont have
you forgave me, dont forget that.
or then i'll forget myself..not like i already have..but like that