Ash For Admiration

Nigh on every minute of every day
Both waking, and in the land of subliminal session:
But one something envelopes my mind, soul and heart;
I am so over-whelmed and encased by,
Such unbridled joy and pure satisfaction-
Thanks in pure result:
My undying love for the most beautiful, wonderful woman.
Someone to whom none come close, for
She is so kind, caring and self-less.
The apotheosis of perfection which I could never forget.
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder?
To see the sight that graces my view,
The embodiment of reverence-
Aye, needless to hand me such an eye for hers!
Born to me and shall never leave.
A being so wonderful it hastens the beat of my
Already swollen heart.

Since that eternal second, those years gone that
My heart clasped on you and your wonder,
I have been hopelessly entrenched in love with your every way;
Unable nor wanting to see anything else in this world.
For mine is elavated to plain floating so high!
When fortune lets it be that I get such a gift;
Time in your presence being so peerless, yet perpuating such
pain.
Fantastic for I can see, hear and enjoy your being-
Keeping me in ecstacy, filled with ultimate happiness!
Heart-breaking as I know it's not returned,
And mine to you unknown
As it has struck me past, and callously continues to hammer so.
To be wrong would let me:
Experience elysium enhanced beyond imagination!
Want or need departing, never to battle against me again.

Alas! How oft doth someone get their wish?
In a place so ruled by reality, nay for most-
Hail to the few!
I drudge with nay sayers.
This is such for me, and I doubt its change.
Ever since that sacred first sight
Of your exquisite splendour, I have faced:
Day on day toil and war with tormenting emotion-
Let her know my heart, or agonise in the oxymoron of life?

Fear of friendship loss thus far denying speech of such truth,
But take it not one day longer can my heart;
To let not my love be known to the subject
Of my abundant affection!
This confession I pray and wish shall,
Destroy not a friendship held so dear.
Feelings of you to me being friend alone,
I both expect and can readily accept.
Those remain intact is all pray I-
For it be that
Loss of such due to these feelings of mine would,
Be so tragically pointless.

I love you Ash!
With all I have and more I don't,
I always have, and never will these feelings die.
For eternity my feelings will live,
In my heart, soul and mind.
I love you Ash:
Forgive me Father?
For have I sinned?