Ummm....SPACE FUDGE!

"It was purple out, again. We were out by the fence playing with, I
think they were dolls of some sort. Everything is, somehow, two
dimensional. Everthing looks like flat cardboard, but at the same time
it's so warm. The sun is purple in the sky and the coluds are of a
velvet shade and they hang ni the same place until we awake up in the
moringin. They abruptly change at night to a oragne moon and a black
skey with large stares and the treees go from gblack and white to an
azure and purple. I don't think there are that many color, that is athe
spectrum is diffient, I don't think there are as manyh colors here. I
think there's hardly any detail to anything here. It's like a child's
coloring book and it makes us all feel so happy. It's me and Sleepjack
and Kristin and then the animals and of course Ruddi. Ruddi is like a
vampire looking guy and he's always up to something, but nothing really
bad, not like here. I think it was that day that we were wondering
where he went. Oh, and we're all short, like puppets or somethning, our
skin is slmost furry like a doll's. Anyway, we hadn't seen Ruddi in
quite some time and Kristin mentioned it and we went looking for him.
It was strange, but we had never left that yard by the fence. We walked
along a green path that was dotted with purple flowers and there were
rabbits hopping along side us. We moved on and it became darker and we
approached these woods we hadnet't seen before. We were all very
scared, but we wanted to find him and, besides, we were curious. I
don't think this was in this place. I don't think it was Earth, or
anything like it. It was somewhere else. I think it's where I'm from. I
think I got lost there and ended&;#8230; So, we walked on a bit
further into the woods and it kept getting so dark. We could see a
certain dead white glow falling on the woods and the trees began to
fade into a black and we moved on. Sleepjack wanted to go back, but
Kristen wouldn't let him. Then we heard Ruddi off in the woods crying
for help. We ran to get him.
Ruddi wasn't all bad, he had fun playing tricks on us and trying to get
us in to trouble with the animals or the with the sun or moon. He never
learned anything from it. WE acted as though he was our enemy, but I
think we all really liked him and without him it wouldn't have been the
same. I don't know what he ever did in the meantime. I don't know if he
was even there when he wasn't. Like, he would only appear when he had a
good little bit of mischeif.
We found him aways in to the wood, there was a strange light coming
from his hands. And something worse, something we'd never seen. His
hands were pale pink and beginning to form drops of red stuff. We told
him to put whatever he was holding down. But he kept saying "But, the
nice monster gave it to me." We asked what monster? He pointed to a
shadow that walked out from behind a tree and it was a human like you
or me, he was wearing what I know now to be denim. I remember, we maybe
came up to his knees. He said something under his breath like "fun" or
something then he walked into the wood further until he disappeared. We
struggled to get the box out of Ruddi's hands and it fell to the floor
and began growing. I swear I heard voices like in an airport coming out
of the box as it fell and it began growing deeper into the ground and
up. It became this strange yellow house, but it was all wrong, like
lopsided and gangly and it had purple windows and doors and long
staircase coming to meet us. We couldn't help ourselves and we went up.
I think we were the only ones like us that lived in that place. Ruddi
came with us and we mounted the steps and went in. As soon as we opened
the door we fell into a kaleidoscope-like tube and we just kinda kept
falling through balloons and cotton candy and sparks and glowing. We
hit bottom somewhere on top of a huge expanse that was like one of
those fun house inflated mattress rooms, but it went out in all
directions till the horizons, it was so pretty and the sky was yellow
and we hadn't ever seen a yellow sky or a blue sun like we did there.
We played in there for hours until Ruddi motioned us over to free
standing door that he said he conjured. Kristen went in first and I
never saw her again, Ruddi then persuaded Sleepjack, but I refused and
he pushed me through. I remember knowing something was wrong, because
Ruddi was never violent, I didn't think any of us were capable of
violence. I don't think he was. I don't think we ever thought of it.
The next thing I knew I was here with no memory of that place, and what
I do remember comes in dreams like this one."
"Do you believe this is the actual reality of your situation, or do you
know that it's a dream?"
"I don't think it's a dream."
"Why?"
"Because it's a memory."
"A memory of a dream."
"No, it's something that was once real."
"You don't believe you're human?"
"No."
"Why?"
"Because of the memory, because of how I feel."
"You're just different, like everyone else."
"No. That's not it. It's much more."
"Alright, well that's fifty." She took out her notebook and scrawled in
the next appointment. "So, next week, same time?"
"You're the only person I've told that to."
"I know, next Thursday?"
"Yeah."

Once again he was in the car. Moving on to the next appointment. He
went from appointment to appointment to sleep to work. There was a
glimmer of a social life in the appointments and the people he would
meet but no phone calls or invitations since he quit. The quitting was
easy, staying quit was much more&;#8230;I saw him go through some
terrible&;#8230;I don't even want to think about it. And, even now,
as I write this story I made for him, I can't help but be responsible.
The plot lines come to me and I can't help but put them down. I can't
avoid it and I can't make anything pretty for him. Not here. It's
simply impossible. And I was once with him, and Ruddi and Sleepjack and
now, I can't go home and I can't make him find Ruddi. Sleepjack is dead
and R&;#8230;
He drove on towards the appointment with Dr. Kincaide where he would
soon find himself with something terrible, something terminal. Walking
into the office he finds Ruddi in the waiting room with a grin, Dr.
Kincaide comes out and it's the monster from the woods. Ruddi begins
laughing hysterically and then begins crying as the doctor waves him
in. He tries to move towards Ruddi, but Ruddi shakes his head and
points at the hole in his chest. The doctor has him by the collar and
drags him into the office.
"Hello, and what can we do for you today, you little shit?"
"Who are you?"
"Doesn't matter, why did you start liping off about your little
sunshine world to that doctor?"
"I&;#8230;I didn't know who else to tell."
"I didn't send you here to fuck up my plans, you will keep your mouth
shut about your problematic memory and I don't want to hear any word of
you again."
"How did you know?"
"Your soon to be dead friend sent you the memory."
"I don't&;#8230;"