Making a start

Working I am sitting
Work trying to start
But all I do is stop
And start. Stop and start.
Drowning inside my flippin heart
With thoughts, noughts,
What did i miss? Listless
Languid unwillingness to part.
I want need to do this work.
To have some conclusion to
This play that rewinds
Made to loop you tangled
All the way deadlike in the dark.
I keep invading your image in my memory
Like a drug addict retching
Rocking convulsing narcotic
Cocktail of you in my heart.
But back to work, no more!
All I need is to make a start,
Make a start!