Silver Rain

I don't want to panic. I feel ok. Just another silent mind, wasting her thoughts on seeing whats left behind. The soul shines, like a happy peach, that's far from the light and hard to reach. I grow still inside, every breath is coming out wide. We steal and conquer, break the pain with our golden arrows. We are the wounded warriors. The dismil drops of rain, slow and soft and like silver tears. I learn to feel, to embrace what I see. What I hear. What I know is real. Inside of me, a sparkling flame. A personal shelter, where I can ease this pain. I used my ears.

I don't want to panic, but I'm losing that part of me, that part that I wanted most. The one that believes that I am me and not that I'm just a thoughtless ghost. Because I'm feeling sad, I feel like I am a machine. I feel like I am asleep sometimes, and sometimes I still believe in those dreams. I want to live forever, because I love life too much to paint the sky black. I want the world to be everlastingly bright, and I want to always come home, with a sunrise painted on the sky that looks down from the clouds above me. In an upside down universe, where the raindrops fall upwards, and I am forever falling with them into paradise. I wish dreams were bells, like the fairies and angels, who took me to the other-side and to other realms.

The purple sun and rainbows not black or white. The darkness has shattered all that my eyes can see, what a mess the darkness has made of me. I'm such a bad woman, such an honest good girl, but inside I'm shaking because I've forgotten to open my heart shaped box. That I'm also on a mission to save the world from rotten apples falling off trees and boxes. Please. Don't leave me alone in the museum of opportunities. I'll pay the price. I'll exchange sorrow and blood for truth and love.

Across the ocean's mists so blue is an island undersea foe you, the spirits watch and wait, for the chance to exist, live as freed. We are born the test of life, and tested by life we needed, because inside each person--is God's destiny. If only it was within me to show you the truth of mastery. That above these spiral stairs, is castle of starlight that glistens, and upon those rainbow towers is a secret side that listens.