Without you

I'll take a deep breath
scream really loud
call my best friend up again
throw your stuff out
tear our photos up
flirt with all the boys
especially the ones you never liked
dance all night
sleep all day
walk around naked in my living room
waste a month's salary
on that glitzy little bag
wear that too tight, too short dress
you never let me have
talk loud
swear often
chew my nails
burp
yawn
pee with the door open
scatter make up all over the basin
stop shaving my legs
no more step classes
2 tubs of Haagen Daz
3 meg Ryan movies
dye my hair red
take yoga
have my belly pierced
take Tai-Bo
wear my weird underwear
phone all day long
forget to say Thank you
or Please
paint my toe nails
get a tatoo
drink myself sick
kiss complete strangers
laugh with my girlfriends

huge hangover
messy flat
can't find clean underwear
wake up alone
forgot to feed the cat
lose the car keys
finish the deodrant
get the phone bill
can't find the stupid cat
too sick to go out
no one calls anymore
gain weight
can't wear that
too tight, too short dress anymore
drink myself sick rather than stay stober
cry at Dawson's creek
hate Meg Ryan
My best friend puts me on call waiting
stub my toe
and break my nails
have an ugly tatoo
and an inflamed belly
start to miss the cat
watch Friends reruns
eat 2 tubs of Haagen Daz
that blend with my tears
have chinese home delivery
two weeks running
the dry cleaners sent your suit
find your photo
I don't tear it up
realise
you took
the cat
with you
when you left