A Mother's Devotion

A Mother’s Devotion

 

 

My precious baby, Ann thought as she looked at her son’s picture. Where did I go wrong? Why didn’t I do more for him? What will I do without him? Her thoughts were racing. She’d been like this since last night. Now that the sun was coming up she knew she didn’t have much time left with her boy.

Chris had been a good boy all of his life. His mom took him to church every Sunday and raised him in a Christian home. She had taken very good care of him on her own. He was her only child. His dad left when he was two. Another woman, of course. Last night Chris came home with a bizarre tale. She could’ve never believed this.

“Mom, I’m home.” He called as he came in through the living room door. He threw down his bag and went from room to room calling for his mom. “MOM,” he yelled loudly when he rounded the corner of the kitchen and saw Ann standing at the sink.

“Oh, hi baby. When did you get home?” She asked while turning to look at him.

“I’ve been calling for you.” He was frustrated with her.

“Sorry.” She was pointing to her ear buds.

Ann always listened to music while doing her chores.

“I need to talk to you about something.” His brow was wrinkled. His brown hair came down to his eyebrows normally but today he had it brushed aside. He was such a handsome young man.

Sixteen years ago when Chris was born, Ann thought he was the prettiest baby to have ever had a mother. Today, not much had changed except he was built like a football player with his broad shoulders and tall frame. She didn’t know where he got it because she and her ex-husband were not very tall at all. Still a very handsome young man. He had a new girlfriend every week it seemed. The girls really liked him. However, he met Michelle six months ago and she changed him. He was done with all the other girls. Michelle was his first love. He would have done anything for her.

“What’s going on honey?”  He looked so serious.

“Mom, I’ve done something and I need your help.”

“Anything for you Chris. You know that.”

“Ok. You know how I told you about Michelle’s ex-boyfriend Matthew?”

“Yeah.”

“He broke the restraining order tonight. He hurt her Mom. Her parents weren’t home. He came in and beat her up.”

“Oh my Chris. Is she ok?”

“She’s in the hospital. He attacked her with a bat. Her skull is fractured in three places. He broke most of the bones in the left side of her face. Seven of her fingers are broken from trying to block the bat. Her right forearm is broken. She’s in a coma, Mom. I don’t know if she’s gonna wake up.” He was crying so hard his body was heaving. Ann reached out and put her arms around him.

“Baby, I’m so sorry.” She just held him, stroked his hair, and cried with him.

“Chris? You said you’ve done something. What did you do?”

It took him a few minutes to stop crying and lift his head.

“I, I went after him. I found him by the lake. I saw his truck and went after him.”

“What did you do Chris?”

“He was sitting on a picnic table drinking. The bat was propped up next to him, still covered in her blood. I came up behind him. He didn’t hear me. I grabbed the bat and started hitting him. I couldn’t stop. He was screaming and trying to grab it from me but I just kept hitting him. I hit him in the head, face, arms, legs, all over. I couldn’t stop. Then all of a sudden he wasn’t moving or screaming. I ran.” He was crying again.

“Oh my God Chris. Did you check on him? His pulse?” She was beside herself and hadn’t stopped crying yet.

“No,” he said through his tears. “I just ran.”

“Did you take the bat with you?” She just knew her fear was showing through.

“No. What am I gonna do Mom?”

“Well first of all I need to go check on him and find that bat. You stay here.” She was already on her feet on her way to the door to get her shoes.

 

Ann’s heart had never raced like that before. She was so scared of what her prefect little boy had done. He wouldn’t hurt a flea.

 

Driving south on route seven would take her right to the lake. She was moving as fast as she could without speeding. The last thing she needed was to get pulled over.

As she drove along the dark highway she began to think about the day Chris was born. She had such a hard labor but when they laid that beautiful baby boy on her chest, the pain melted away. He was so worth it. She couldn’t fathom the love she would have for this child until that moment. Then she realized there wasn’t one thing she wouldn’t do for him. She thought of his first birthday and first day of school. How he had grown over his sixteen years. She remembered every day of his life. But, this is one she wished she could forget.

 

Arriving at the lake she saw a truck, then the picnic tables, and finally the young man lying on the ground. There was blood everywhere. It was hard to make out his face because of the severe wounds. She knelt beside him and leaned over his body. She couldn’t see his chest move so she put her fingers on the side of his neck. After re-positioning them a few times, she realized she couldn’t feel a pulse because he didn’t have a pulse.

The tears that had finally dried up had restarted again.

“Oh dear God, what has he done?” she whispered while looking at what was left of the young man’s face. His eyes appeared to be slightly open but were swollen so bad she couldn’t see his eyes through the slits. His teeth were missing and she couldn’t find his nose.

She stood in a panic. Not knowing what to do. What she did know was she had to find that bat. She walked briskly away looking for it. She had her cell phone but was afraid to turn on the light. She didn’t want to be seen. Finally after about ten minutes and walking in every direction away from his body, she saw the bat. She sprinted toward it and scooped it up without stopping. She had to get out of there.

 

The fifteen minute trip home was difficult. She tried to maintain the speed limit again. And, this time her thoughts were far from Chris’ cuteness. Now, she began to think about what would happen to him.

What should I do? She thought. She didn’t want to lose him but it was wrong to not make him pay. If he went to prison she would go crazy. But, if she protected him from the law, it would change both of them. She only had a few minutes left to decide what to do.

She turned her car off and grabbed the bat while opening the door. She grabbed a dirty towel she had used to wax her car that was hanging in the garage, and wrapped the towel in it.

 

“Chris, I’m back.” She called.

“What happened Mom? Is he ok?” He looked so weak. Her little baby boy had killed another child in cold blood.