Invisible Chains

I am not going to do this to myself anymore.
I close my eyes and open them again hoping your face is gone.

No matter what I do..you stay.
I hear your voice telling me that you love me but we can never
be.

I watched myself wilt like a flower in front of you.
My head hung so low.
The ends of my hair touching the dirty concrete.

My sanity is gone.
I can't tell a lie and say I was ever pure.
But with you..I felt close to it.

I don't know how I was ever able to stand up when all I felt like doing
was falling.
I wanted to just fall and never stop.
Wind wiping away the tears.

Running away would be of no inner satisfaction as I know that I would
look for you over my shoulder always.

I try to make you go away.
I try to get you out of me.
I want to take my eyes out but I know it's you I would still continue
to see.

I try not to cry.
I swear I try so hard.
Memories of you killing my soul slowly.
My heart trickles rubies.

From you, I have faded.
A deathly dim grey.
For me, thoughts of you destroying each day.

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