I,m Watching

I is for

I,m Watching
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You don,t know that I,m watching you.That faraway gaze in your
eyes.You,re thinking of him.You always think of him.God damn it woman
he died forty years ago.You married me.I gave you my life, your
childre.I worked for you and them.If even once i let myself believe you
loved me.Just once.Do you still dream of him?Is he still young?You are
smiling at me now and I smile back at you and touch your hand.It,s
always been a threesome.When we die will you go with him in an
afterlife/.Damn it I love you so much.I hate you equally.No not you.But
him.
"what are you thinking about, John?"
"Nothing really dear":