my sad song, chpt 1-part one

beep, beep, beep,goes the sound of the machine next to me, the one i am hooked up to, the one that holds the key to my life. yes i am in a hospital bed, yes i am not well, and yes i am alone, very alone. i push a button then another and wait, my mom answers her cell. "Mom, can you ask Sadie to visit me, tell her to bring the poster board and markers," I said into the phone. "Hallie, are you ok? do you need me to come there?" her mom nervously replied. "No, I'm fine just please tell her," I said and without a goodbye hung the phone on the hook and waited. Ever since I was diagnosed with Cancer my life was all about waiting, and waiting. I stared at the pink teddy bear someone had givin me. "I hate you," she said to it then luaghed at herself. why did I punish te lifeless teddy bear for my sorrow?