Just to breathe.....

I've often wondered why some of us are forced to endure so much hardships, and wondered as to the fairness of it. Nothing ever comes easy ,you often have to work for it ,make adjustments in your life because circumstances played a role in it. Yes, it may not be at the expense of your inner peace , but for some it is the case.

Just like many before me I've had those moments of wondering why , and yes I'm allowed to. No one will go through hardships, or are forced to work hard for what they want without wondering why me, why now , how will I handle this , and yes be thinking life's just not fair.

But I've discovered when left at your own defences and when you've hit rock bottom emotionally with God as your only hope against onslaughts you haven't signed up for .You're being shaped into what God wants you to be. Those trials and hardships are tests not to break us, demean or marginalize us but it is to strengthen us for tasks and trials we have yet to undergo. I've even read the scriptures that proofs it. Those trials we're never meant to be seen as some form of punishment, though in those moments I'm sure many have reasoned that it was.

Now looking back at the years and the things I've learned along the way. I've come to realize one more thing as fear , uncertainty and divisions wreak havoc around the world . I became still , calm and I've turned my eyes heaven wards. I can in all honesty say I'm grateful for those moments of hardships, the isolation moments and the no entry based on my skin colour and those disrespectful and disregard of me as a person based on my views or anything that's related to me.

I'm more stronger because of that I've grown but most of all it taught me to solely place my trust in God like I did so many times before. No matter how devastating the storm because I know where my help comes from and I hope that wherever and whoever you are that you'll realize that no matter what, everything is going to be alright and because you're not depending on your own strength but Gods. That alone will give you the will to face each day and take it one step at a time rendering any storm meaningless. As all the unimportant things falls away .

You’ll realize it's even a blessing just to breathe because God made that possible. With each new day , good or bad you'll be comforted in the knowledge that God is in control of your journey and your storms and he'll clear your path come what may. May you have a blessed day, month and blessed years because you are the apple of Gods eye.